Thursday, January 14, 2010
blame game!
Wednesday, January 6, 2010
A letter:From theism to agnosticism!
I have many things on mind and I want somebody to answer them.
First and foremost, do you get everything you ask for from God?
If YES, then what is the secret that all your prayers are answered? Is there something we need to do? We d‘mannat and fasts to fulfill our wishes, but I really really think is God so objective that if we do one fast then he will grant us one wish, next time next mannat of 2 kilo of laddoos and we get other wish granted. He is ‘the God’, how can he do give-and-take? I still havn’t got the entire reason behind fasting. Please tell me if you know it. Or some book where I can find this.
If NO, then why do you still pray? Didn’t you get angry withGod?
Now, I will tell you my situation. I was a hardcore theist till sometime back, I think I still am; but an event has kinda shattered my faith. One of my best friend's sister just passed away. Maybe, you will think it’s stupid of me to cry about it so much, but I really think it’s unfair on God’s part to do this. I understand that everybody has his/her own time in this world and has to go when that time comes, but if everything is so decided then why pray? When I heard the news of her getting hurt, I went straight to the temple and asked God for her recovery and said if she was recovered, I would go to Shirdi for darshan. Now, imagine me doing this for my friend’s sister, then her close relatives must have had so many mannats and prayers. She didn’t have to leave this world so early. Still it happened!
After this, its not that I don’t believe in God, I know that He is there, but I am angry with him. I don’t want to ask him for anything. I am not the same old person now. Believe in God- do fasting- keep asking for something-no matter if wish is fulfilled or not still ask next time. I don’t know whether I am right or wrong, but I seek many answers.
